It’s 2 A.M and I’m still studying. On my high tension of studying, I rather write this blog. Pfft. Since the air is humid here, I got many bites from mosquitos! I wonder why God created mosquito which has life only for sucking human’s blood. I cannot find the answer. The only thing I know is God is good; all things He made is good; and He created for good purpose. Well, I don’t know the purpose driven of your life, Mr. Mosqie, but I know you are good (or at least you’re created for a good purpose).
Forget about Mr. Mosqie. Now I’m studying for English proficiency test. I finally got the loan for paying the test fee (praise God!). So I chose the date which is 2 weeks from now. It’s a crazy decision to take that test on that near knowing the school required for an ‘insane score’, but that is how faith possibly can be. It’s peculiar when you just step your feet onto nothing but then you feel there’s something beneath your feet firming you, and bringing you to the second step, third step, and unconsciously you have already miles away from your start point. It’s something that brain could not explain!
I gave up for this, yesterday. I felt like it was too big for me, so I didn’t want to take a step ahead. I wanted to let it behind and just be an ordinary. But I guess I forgot something. God didn’t bring me this far to leave me. And I realized that the mount I have been facing now is the last mount I need to face. I just knew the reason why it felt harder that made me cry physically and spiritually. I am facing my last mount where my dream is on behind!
Well, God has prepared me the money, and the date will follow. I will be moving forward. I admit that He has brought me this far. There was moment in numbers that made me stuck in awe. He has strengthened me by His words. From those words given I conclude that He wants my heart. He doesn’t look for my skill or fluency, but a heart that trusts Him completely. Beside English, I’m now learning to trust Him more.
I’ve gotta go to my bricklike books, doodles of vocabulary, and John Piper’s sermons. I have been using his sermons as my listening prompt. Haha It’s double advantages! 😉
“The righteous shall live by faith.”
Living The Impossibilities 